Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Creating hope

It's been a terrible flipping week.

The attacks on children in China and Newtown have had me holding D extra close. I can't even begin to imagine that horror. There simply are no words.

And.... I lost my job. I've worked part time as a graphic designer for a not-for-profit for eons. I've been very fortunate to have had a bit of secure income that guaranteed, even in the leanest times, that groceries could be paid for every week. Despite my longevity with the place, they're small with a limited operating budget so there's no severance pay. A week before Christmas, I'm sure you'll agree, is pretty shitty timing.

I've never lost a job before and it's been 20ish years since I've been completely out of work. Frankly, it scares the hell out of me.

But what is there to do? The only thing to do is to pick up and move forward. And when you can't find hope for yourself, perhaps creating it for someone else can help. So here's the baker's boy, bestowed with striped socks and a crown and instilled with a strange thrilling wonder.

While waiting for this little monkey to cheer me up, I'm going to eat a pound of fudge and roll around in some glitter to drown my sorrows.

Here's hoping tomorrow will be a brighter day.


  1. I am so sorry to hear about your situation. There is no "good time" to lose a job but December is certainly the worst of all.

    We're going through the same thing here at my homestead. Unless things pick up fast after the New Year, both my husband and I will be unemployed by February. Fortunately he will receive a severance, but benefits are a huge issue around here. The prospect of having none looms large.

    As you say, all you can do is pick yourself up, move forward and stay positive. I've found through my fight with cancer that a positive attitude - as corny as it sounds - really can move mountains.

    Stay strong; joy and peace to you and yours.

  2. Fudge are glitter are great ideas. Indulge! Best of luck to you finding a new job-I'm sure it is such a worry-try to enjoy Christmas despite it all.

  3. I'm so sorry that you're going through this.

    Hug the little one and kiss the one who helped make the little one and then off to the fudge and glitter.

    After all, no amount of stressing or worrying are going to help and fudge and glitter ALWAYS help!

  4. that s just crumb luck. im soo sorry. i know its hard but try to think of the good things...stay positive n good things will happen

  5. Ahh, that was a crappy thing especially before the holidays!! I have never understood why employers do that? It's mean spirited, and heartless no matter the reasons.
    You have so many people wishing you all the best, and as talented as you are, you will find something soon!!
    Wishing you a healthy, happy and prosperous new year!